✖ anxiety attack: 002 ✖ Quickly progressing to Stage 3 ✖

[wolfishsurvivalist]

[Phone]

[With much less screaming this time!]

So, I just wanted to say sorry about the other day, and could anyone tell me where the hospital is? Apparently I actually do have a job, but I'm not sure how to get there. Also is it just me, or does the air smell different? I'm a little concerned, lavender always gave me horrible headaches.

Also seriously? What the hell is with this Red Scare? I knew this was supposed to be a 1950's knockoff, but this is just insane!

[339 Brady Lane]

Okay, guys? I don't know when I'll be back but there's a platter of pancakes on the kitchen counter and a plate of cookies next to it. You are not allowed to eat the whole plate of cookies before I get back, I didn't get to have any yet because they were too hot. I'll bite you if they're all gone when I get home.

[Where she found the ingredients for either of those is a mystery~!]

Comments

[notlikethemovie.livejournal.com]

No, it's fine, it's just for some reason I started talking and I couldn't stop. Then again, I haven't actually been able to talk about this to anybody. Nobody that was at that house ever talks about it, I can't take it to a professional, and everyone else thinks I'm crazy if I even mention it.

So I guess in a way, it's kind of a relief? I mean, what else can I do about it? What is there that I could do?

YOU DID NOT SEE THE FAIL.

[glowing-science.livejournal.com]

... That's fair enough.

For what it's worth, there are a couple of licensed people you can talk to in town. Harley Quinn and Dr. Crane both have degrees and a great deal of experience in the field. I don't know about Dr. Crane, but Harley's a surprisingly good ear.

Just... she's kind of weird. Word of warning.

TOTALLY DID.

[notlikethemovie.livejournal.com]

[Mika's expression is slightly disturbed at the names she's offered, but she holds her tongue, despite looking like she wants to say something.

After a while she finally sighs, looking worried again.]

Are you sure they won't go all weird on me? The last thing I want is to end up drugged out of my mind or on shock therapy.

NUH-UH.

[glowing-science.livejournal.com]

Well... Harley won't? For what that's worth. I talked to her about some things that were getting me down here, and she was a surprising amount of help. She's bored and has the degree, so it's worth a try.

Yuh-huh! >T

[notlikethemovie.livejournal.com]

Well, maybe, but even if I started opening up and babbling on and on at you for I don't even know what reasons, I'm actually terrified of other people. I've been scared of new people ever since I got back from the ghost town, and the assassination really only made it worse.

I know you mean well, but I'm too scared to talk to people about this on my own. I don't know why I'm just spewing it out today, it's a little unsettling.

;_;

[glowing-science.livejournal.com]

Okay. But since I already know, you can talk to me if you need to. It's not healthy to keep stuff bottled up like that.

....hugs? (\;; 3 ;;/)

[notlikethemovie.livejournal.com]

I know, I just didn't know who I could go to. So...Thanks, Ema. I mean that.

<3

[glowing-science.livejournal.com]

You're welcome.

We need to stick together. Here more than anywhere.

~ ♥

[notlikethemovie.livejournal.com]

[Mika looks strangely moved!

T-tailwags!]

[glowing-science.livejournal.com]

[Ema can't see the mental tailwagging, but she can tell that Mika is happy with where this has gone.]

And we're here. It's not too far out, all things considered.

[notlikethemovie.livejournal.com]

Wow, not bad.

[Mika gazes up at the building, huffing softly.]

And it's not haunted at all, right?

[glowing-science.livejournal.com]

Nope. Just filled with drones, a couple of crazy people, and the rest of us. [Reassuring smile.] No ghosts.

[notlikethemovie.livejournal.com]

[The look she shoots Ema is one of muted distress. Much less than in her icon.]

Crazy people can be just as bad, depending on who they are you know.

[glowing-science.livejournal.com]

I've never met a ghost, so I wouldn't know. But at least crazy people lack supernatural abilities.

Usually.

[notlikethemovie.livejournal.com]

You can never tell.

[She seems surprisingly jittery about this line of conversation for some reason.]

[glowing-science.livejournal.com]

...are you okay?

[notlikethemovie.livejournal.com]

Yes...well, no, not really.

[glowing-science.livejournal.com]

Do you need anything? Or is there anything I can even do?

[notlikethemovie.livejournal.com]

Honestly at this point, I have no idea if there's anything anyone can do for me.

[glowing-science.livejournal.com]

If you're sure.

I'm pretty sure you'll be okay. There are people to avoid, but overall the hospital is safe. Just concentrate on doing a decent job and you'll be fine.

[notlikethemovie.livejournal.com]

But...now that you've said that...isn't that the point where everything goes horribly, painfully wrong?

[If she thinks so now, this will only get better as soon as she discovers who their coworkers are...]

[glowing-science.livejournal.com]

Mika. Stop.

Scientifically speaking, things going wrong have no causal relationship to anything I say. Calm down or you're going to make yourself sick.

[notlikethemovie.livejournal.com]

Getting physically sick would be an improvement, I think. It might actually help calm my nerves.

Somehow. I'm not certain.

Chewing on grass sounds rather appealing right now.

[glowing-science.livejournal.com]

I didn't know wolves did that as well as dogs. [You learn something new every day?]

Try taking some deep breaths first.

[notlikethemovie.livejournal.com]

Sometimes. Not usually, since normally it's not exactly necessary.

Sometimes we eat snow instead. But I've never even seen snow except for in the ghost town so that doesn't really count.

[A huge sigh counts for something, right? It's a start, right?]